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zenobia
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Posted: 14 August 2011 05:51 pm |
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I can't take it any more.
I need this place.
i miss everyone.
so i am back.
first, i would like to apologize to Nir for basically flipping out. I'm really very sorry. i guess the whole situation was the proverbial "straw" and i just couldn't handle it. I probably over-reacted and took the whole situation too personally. I am very very sorry if i said anything to offend or upset. sometimes i just don't think before i type (or speak, for that matter)... so i humbly offer my sincerest apologies.
My love of this place and my cph friends is greater than my anger for one individual, so i have decided that it's time to return. i found myself thinking of people and things i wanted to post, but wouldn't let myself because of some idea of some "principle." really, fighting myself to stay away seems like a lot of wasted energy and time...
honestly, i guess i really just needed some time away to get other life things in order. it seems as though things are starting to improve in other areas and i can bring the focus back to getting healthy and keeping up with friendships associated with this place. life is too short (or too long) to not be where i want to be. of course, this can be applied to all areas of life, but returning here is instant and is a step in the right direction.
i am thrilled to be back. i miss everyone. i will will refrain from going to the forums that bring negative energy and try to stay "zen"  . i am no longer a mod, so this will make things much easier...
I have a lot of catching up to do!
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zenobia
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Posted: 14 August 2011 06:04 pm |
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p.s.- Nir, did you do what i think you did? if so, it's freaking awesome!!!! THANK YOU!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 15 August 2011 01:41 am |
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It is great to see you back! Welcome "home" Zen. We missed you. :) 
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Hisgal
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Posted: 15 August 2011 03:08 am |
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Zen......so glad to see you back!  I missed you!
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MichelleP
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Posted: 15 August 2011 02:00 pm |
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| Glad you are back! I too deleted my long diary from here, which directly relates to the individual I think you were talking about. It's only been a couple of days since mine was deleted and I already find myself missing it, and am considering starting a brand new one as well. The questionable forum is still here but can only be seen by distinguished members if you opt in.
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Sassykat
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Posted: 15 August 2011 02:40 pm |
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| Glad to see you back Zen!
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zenobia
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Posted: 15 August 2011 05:33 pm |
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Thanks for all the warm welcomes guys!! i missed you!
yeah, i have no desire to see what he has to say, so i am quite pleased with it not existing from this point of view. i refuse to validate his opinion (heavy on the opinion part), those he has every right in the world to have an opinion.
anyway, enough about that. i'm basically going to pick back up where i left off.
Michelle- have you asked Nir if he can retrieve your diary? He may be able to. not sure what happens to "deleted" stuff here. I know i moved mine to the recycle bin, but i wanted to get a fresh start anyway. sometimes it just feels better to start anew.
so i have started the P90x thing recently and holy carp i am sore! this is insane!! i'm starting day 3 today of the "lean" program, adding on my own cardio when possible. 5.5 weeks till the wedding and i need all the help i can get. Not nearly close to where i was hoping i would be, but you know, i have accepted that. besides, i really am going to shoot for the long term goals and am just fine with taking my time getting there. i just have to keep pushing and work at a livable pace. well, i am amping it up for now, but i want to keep getting stronger after the wedding and just get to my peak by the time march 31st rolls around. after the wedding, i'll have right about 6 months and i don't want to look at it as a deadline, but more as a point where i can asses my progress and really focus on the maintaining part of my "training" i guess. does that make sense?
i know i posted about things improving and settling down the other day. i hate to count my chickens... i hope things are evening out and that we are entering a time of settled harmony. but you know, it seems that i always need something to worry about and i'm sure i will think of something to give me stress. lol. story of my life.
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Sassykat
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Posted: 15 August 2011 05:53 pm |
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Good job on getting the exercise in! Exercise and I have become distant aquaintences. (Deliberate exercise anyway). When life settles down I do have an exercise video I just bought, but haven't watched yet. Don't let me forget about it!
I read a little of those tough love posts, and thought they were ridiculous. You know the old saying "you don't catch flies with vinegar"? It's true. Anway, I never engaged in a conversation with that person so none of it bothered me. I thought about voicing my opinion, but it occured to me that would be giving the guy the negative attention he so clearly craves which I think is what he is truly doing it for. It's probably best to just face forward, don't look behind you and don't let anyone get in your way of your health journey. Focus on all that is good. 
You are a smart and determined lady Zen. Best of luck to you with your goals. I know you can do it!
Sorry, but I have to add (you know me!) B vitamins are great with helping a person not to worry about things.
Great sources of natural B vitamins are in bee pollen, & nutritional yeast. There's also those B-complex vitamins that work well. I so treasure the days I feel like a cool cat and don't worry about all of life's problems.
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mchen01
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Posted: 15 August 2011 07:03 pm |
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Welcome back Zen! I really enjoy reading your diary and am glad to see you back. 
Good luck with the P90X! Those workouts are TOUGH!
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zenobia
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Posted: 15 August 2011 07:20 pm |
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oh thanks sassy! you totally reminded me about my b-complex! i started taking them yesterday and forgot this morning. awesome! and i did not know they helped with stress. very cool!
mchen- oh totally! super tough! have you done the workouts before? if so, how did it go?
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mchen01
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Posted: 16 August 2011 12:29 am |
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I only did the yoga and abs workout, and those were tough enough. I was usually a sweaty, lifeless noodle before the workouts even completed. 
I do know 2 people who finished the full program, and they were already pretty strong. By the end they were super buff, so it definitely works.
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MichelleP
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Posted: 16 August 2011 03:04 am |
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Have fun with the P90x. My 16 year old son just started it yesterday in the hopes of toning up some muscle. I've heard it's a bear but worth it. I'm going to watch him doing it tomorrow so I can see what it's like.
I can get my old diary re-instated but I just decided to keep it deleted. I actually like the idea of having a new diary, so it all works out.
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 16 August 2011 01:53 pm |
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| Zen! You're back! Happiness :smile
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zenobia
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Posted: 18 August 2011 05:25 am |
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oh jack! *hugs!!!*
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zenobia
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Posted: 22 August 2011 07:39 pm |
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lol- yeah, that's typical... i start back here only to leave for a week... well, things got kind of crazy for a little bit... soo....
so i am going to start by posting what i have done thus far in terms of working out since August 13th (which i have marked on a calendar, but has turned into kind of a mess)...
First though, i have started doing P90x (the "Lean" routine-- which means heavier on the cardio and a bit less on the weights (though it's still intense and there are enough weight routines for my ability) but i have not been following it exactly)...
8/13- Core Synergenics (focus on the core, clearly)
8/14- Cardio X, 30 min elliptical
8/15- Shoulders & Arms (not including bonus round), some Ab-Ripper, 30 min elliptical
8/16- nothing
8/17- 1/2 leg routine, 30 min elliptical
8/18- nothing (i drank heavily the night before)
8/19- 30 min elliptical
8/20- Kenpo X (kick-boxing type stuff)
8/21- 15 min bike, 15 min elliptical
8/22- Turbo Jam Fat Blaster (intervals), Shoulders & Arms (no bonus round)
so i think i have actually been doing pretty well. worked out at least once 8 of the last 10 days...
Also, i bought a 14 day cleanse from GNC and started that on the 19th, so i am currently on day 4. I honestly don't know if it will do any good but i guess the way i am looking at it is that if i am goign to spend the money on something like that, i am going to follow it. I will eat healthier, workout more, and not drink. So far so good and it seems worth the price, whatever the true "effectiveness" of the actual cleanse may be. Besides, I got it on sale :)
so that is pretty much what has been going on. My husband FINALLY got a job!!! YAY!!!!! and he started work today. Of course, we looked at what we own on student loans and there is still a huge level of stress regarding money, but at least we have more income now and can actually work something out. According to the "higher ups" he should be able to advance into a higher paying position when something opens up (he is back at the bank-- he has 20 years experience at this particular one), so this will help.. but for now, i am so grateful that we both have jobs!!!!!!! omg you have no idea!!!!!!!!!
school starts tomorrow for me, which is always interesting. i'm not as excited as i usually am, which to me means that i am ready to be on with my life. I am excited about the things i will learn, but i'm so ready to get into my career. almost there... i just have to really push myself and get a little bit of confidence... and quit procrastinating due to fear of the unknown...
anyway, i think that's it! i should be back on here on a more regular basis now :)
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zenobia
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Posted: 22 August 2011 11:01 pm |
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oh motivation... 30 days from tomorrow... and this is one of the dresses i purchased in hopes of looking da.mn fine on my hubby's arm...
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?VISuperSize&item=350485161367
i don't know if i can make it...10 days left of this cleanse... then... hhmmmm...
here is the other dress, which seems to be more feasible
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 23 August 2011 06:26 am |
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Hey Zen - that dress looks very cool and different. Congrats on hubs getting the job! It must be a huge relief.
Great to see your back, after coming back! I was just starting to wonder if I wasn't getting emails on your posts and was going to check anyway. Last edited on 23 August 2011 06:27 am by jackbenimble
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Hisgal
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Posted: 23 August 2011 07:02 pm |
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Zen, I love that dress...........and I bet that color looks good with your blonde hair.
Yay! for the hubs job! I know what you were going through! My hubs has been laid off more than working for about 3 years........he's in construction. So, now he's mapping out the Construction offices in the Twin Cities, and systematically stopping at each one! This is day 4 of stopping with resumes, and hoping for work! Not fun......sure got to give him kuddos for doing it! He's always spent one day a week looking for work in area towns, but he's putting the pressure on now.......maybe on himself.
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zenobia
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Posted: 23 August 2011 08:11 pm |
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hey jack! yeah, nir suggested that i get my old journal back for the e-mail notifications, but you know, i just wanted a new one. i figured people can decide if they want to get notifications about my journal if they wnat to again :) also, yes, the dress is a little out of my comfort zone in terms of color. i am deciding between that and a sexy little black mini number, but we will see :)
hisgal- 3 years?  i've been freaking out since may and was barely able to handle it. i hope your hubs finds something soon- i totally know how it feels to not have that stability.
so, i am on day 5/14 with mild tummy problems. also, yesterday i added 30 min of the bike before bed. woke up this morning very close to being under 140.
8/23- 35 min elliptical.
class starts tonight. yay? on the down side, i need to ride the bus and there is a heat advisory out. high of 113. i have a 30 min wait between transfers... ugh. when will summer be over????
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 24 August 2011 04:16 pm |
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What is with Arizona and the 110+ plus temperatures? Which is better, that or the frigid winters up on Minn?
A black dress sounds good to me :)
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zenobia
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Posted: 24 August 2011 09:03 pm |
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yeah, i'm really digging the black one, i just need to nix about 10 more lbs. it will be done :)
so i only got 1 workout in yesterday, but that's ok.
omg, school is going to be sooooooo stressful. holy #%@&! there is a ton to do! but it's cool, i just have to manage my time wisely....
oh!! talk about an accomplishment of moderation- last night i wanted to go out after class sooo bad in preperation for the upcoming stress i guess?? lol- counter-productive, i know, but you know how it goes... anyway, hubs didn't want to go out.. as we were getting stuff for dinner, i decided to pick up a bottle of wine. thought it was a nice compromise... anyway, got home started cooking, cracked it open and had a glass. after dinner i had one more AND THAT WAS IT! I actually DID NOT polish off the whole bottle as i usually do. i sipped it slowly, it took the edge off, and i slept well. woke up at 7:30- ish and was motivated to figure out my school stuff. i think this is the first time since 2004 that thisi has happened. could i really be moving toward a more moderate way? time will tell :)
so workouts:
8/24
30 min elliptical
leg work (p90x legs and back, but only the legs part)
played on the lat pull down machine thing for a while to get something for my back
5 min of non-stop hard ab work
so all in all, a pretty good session today i'd say about 60 minutes total. my legs will be sore tomorrow.
food... well, i had my cleanse stuff, the protien shake, then popcorn i know. i don't know what got into me. i used coconut oil and yes, some butter. *sigh* but you know, at least i am having the carbs before work. i'm going to try to keep it light the rest of the day...
maybe i can get in another workout before bed (tonight will be an early bed time, too- i have a turn around shift...)
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zenobia
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Posted: 25 August 2011 06:17 pm |
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well, i did a favor for work, so i ended up not doing a turn-around and now work at 3, which means i have only about 3 more hours to work on my homework. i effectively screwed myself by being nice... *sigh* plus, i close tonight, but have to be at work at 5 a.m. tomorrow. at least they are letting me leave early tonight since i am helping them out. hopefully they will let me out by 9...
so yesterday i had the last 2 glasses of wine in the bottle and hit the sack around 12:30. not sure where cals ended up, but i don't think t could have been over 2000.
got up at 8-ish, hit the elliptical around 9, cooled off a bit, then did Kenpo from p90x.
8/25:
30 min elliptical
45 min kenpo
i also tried on the dress agian today and it seems to be looking a bit better. i then tried it on with spanx and i looked a lot better... if i had to wear it right now though, i don't think i would. still not fully comfortable in it. i still have about 4 weeks to go, so i should be ok. also, i totally need a butt lift. lol.
god, i can't wait till i'm around 125 again. or at least a size 4 again... currently a size 8-10... 
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 26 August 2011 06:27 pm |
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I hear ya on sizing down, Zen. I have this 5-lb gut which isn't going to go away without some serious effort. Nice job not polishing off the wine - you *are* headed in the right direction with all the exercise your doing. 15 minutes of exercise per day has comparable benefits to quitting smoking!
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zenobia
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Posted: 29 August 2011 01:55 am |
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so.... i have started on south beach again. i think i'm going to be doing phase one until the wedding, then move on to phase 2 once we get back. i had pretty good luck with phase one last time and i think doing it for 3.5 weeks will get my whole food situation under better control. i'm already eating more veggies, so this is good :) i'm alreaddy missing my banana inn my morning smoothie, but it's cool. I think i want to be very very detailed about what i am eating on herre now, not just noting cals, but exactly what i am eating as well.
also, going to shoot for 3 weeks with no wine. lol.
i'll update later.
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zenobia
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Posted: 29 August 2011 05:24 am |
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ok, here goes
Day 1/24
Designer whey protein shake w/ 2 Truvia packets, 1 tbsp all natural peanut butter, glycine, glutamine- 250 cals
a taste of hummus, some ham, string cheese stick- 135
Adkins bar ( i was in a pinch)- 240
Salad of broccoli, cauliflower, reduced fat cheese, ham, bacon bits, light buttermilk ranch- 275
soy crisps (only 2 sugars!! yay!)- 130
almonds- 100
2 sticks of string cheese- 100
=1230
workout:
40 min elliptical
so far so good :) i did not do p90x today as i was just really tired. zoning out on the elliptical just sounded soooo nice, so that is what i did. I plan on getting back on the routine tomorrow. i have the day off, so i am going to do 2 workouts again, along with a bunch of homework and experiment with some recipes :)
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zenobia
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Posted: 29 August 2011 05:52 pm |
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well hello!
so here i am. day 2/24. why 24? well, i think that's how many days till we leave. anyway, i am currently cooling down from an intense elliptical session. though it was only 30 min, i totally pushed it and am sweating buckets. gross, but awesome.
i think i am on my week before- i was up like 2.5 lbs this morning after a really good day yesterday 9though 2 not so good days right before). i'm hoping this is all water weight...
i'm currently debating between showering then doing some running around, saving my weight routine until later, or doing it now then being a bit crammed for time later on. i have a bunch of stuff i want to do today... so i think i will save the weights till this afternoon. ok, decision made.
food so far:
string cheese- 50
hard boiled egg- 70
chocolate pb smoothie- 250
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zenobia
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Posted: 30 August 2011 05:57 pm |
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well yesterdayi tried to post on here with the rest of my food edits, but it wouldn't let me. for some reason, my laptop does not like cph and my desk top was having a problme connecting with the wireless. anyway, i did well with the low carb business yesterday, save for a whole lot of stevia i poured into a cup of baking cocoa and almond milk. oh, and i did have a protien bar. a moment of weakness at the grocery store. it could have been worse, but i still would have liked to have skipped that...
3/24
anyway, i did well yesterday and my totals should have hit right around 1400.
i did some shopping yesterday and got 2 tops (both mediums!) and some feather jewelery. i LOVE that feathers are back in because i can now find hair pieces and earings with feathers. at least is doesn't seem like everyone and their mother is wearing feathers...
so, up at 6-6:30-ish this morning.. did 30 min elliptical (though it was tough. i had very little "power" this morning. i planned on doing 40 min, but i just couldn't push my body to go any more. i had to take an inordinate amount of breaks, too. must be the low carb business kicking in?). so this was before breakfast. after, i had my smoothie sans ice (i forgot to fill it last night) and did the Should and Arm work i was supposed to do yesterday. i am off schedule with my P90x, but i'm trying to get back on track. i am off by like 3 days... oh well. at least i'm still working out and making an attempt!
i was going to do some ab work from my TJ dvd, but got aggravated when it kept skipping. so i just did some front and side crunches and called it a day. all in all, about an hours worth of work... not too shabby :)
class tonight, homework, and i think thats all!
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 30 August 2011 09:41 pm |
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None to shabby at all, Zen. You're doing great :)
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zenobia
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Posted: 31 August 2011 05:18 am |
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thanks for the words of encouragement, jack 
so on to the business. i totaled in at about 1025 cals. low, but nothing to be worried about. these kinds of days are few and far between...
let's see. after my smoothie, i had a shroom and cheese omelet with a bit of picante and sour cream. i had a salad at school (opted for this over a protien bar... but this is why my cals were so low, too...), came home and kind of picked at stuff (2 laughing cow cheese wedges, a bit of chicken, a string cheese stick, 5 almonds) before giving up and deciding on another smoothie. oh well. it was after 9 and i didn't feel like turning on any major appliences, nor did i feel like doing all the chopping that is involved in making a salad. but i will do prep tomorrow.
i decided to nix homework this evening since i got a bunch done today (mostly reading) and after a certain point in the eveneing, my brain just doesn't want to have to pay attention to anything that takes too much concentration...
oh, i stepped on the scale this morning and i was back down to my usual 140. now i just have to make it through this stupid number. I always get tripped up at 140 for some reason. it's getting really old. i guess i have to let this frustration fuel me for at least 3 weeks. after that i HAVE to stick to it no matter what. i need to keep pushing through this and sticking to the P90x. i'm still on that mission to be in amazing shape by my 30th...
i have also decided that i need to moisterize more. I'm really good about doing my face (people tend to think i'm closer to 23 than 29, so this is good!!!) but i want to have young looking skin everywher else too for as long as possible. i think increasing my water, adding the lemon, taking vitamins, eating the "good and green" and keeping up with skin oils will help in this department. i actually used some nut oils today and it feels pretty good.
on a less physical note, i'm getting in deep to my first class. it's highly intensive, but manageable.
I have a meeting with a potential practicum "employer" on the 16th. i don't know if this is going to be an actual interview type thing or just a meeting. But she sounds really cool and really wants the help. I"m nervous- I haven't really started anything new as far as jobs go since 2007. and even then, it was a promotion.. i basically already knew a lot of the job and the environment was the same. I am really not sure how to prepare for something like this. if anyone has any insight, it would be greatly appreciated!
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zenobia
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Posted: 31 August 2011 07:38 pm |
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yay! my computer is fixed!
so i can now post from this computer 9thanks nir for pointing out about firefox!)
so, here it is:
4/24
smoothie- 250
cheese- 35
hardboiled egg- 70
30 min elliptical
i think i was pretty dehydrated this morning, cuz i weighed in at 138.5, plus, i woke up with blanket marks on my legs. could have been a combo of low cals yesterday though... i did drink a #%@&! ton of water, but i spent a lot of time in the heat and i'm sure i sweated off a good pound.
but still have with the number, so whatever i've just been dying to get below that 140 mark!! now, if i can hit 135, i'll be super motivated to keep going, even after the wedding then i'll only be about 10 lbs from my goal!!! hahahahaha!!!! super happy!!!!
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 1 September 2011 03:30 am |
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| 138.5 - sweet! With all that working out and dieting, something had to give sooner or later.
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zenobia
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Posted: 1 September 2011 06:34 am |
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no joke jack, something had to start moving.
i totally made up for lost cals yesterday by ending today around 1650 cals. about 300 higher than what i would have liked, but i was just ravenous today. maybe because of the lack of carbs? or i think i'm on my week before? or who knows. it could be anything.
So I have been drinking Smooth Move tea at night, not completely realizing that it is a stimulant laxative. i was thinking it was just some herbal tea that, well, helped to move things along, but apparently, it is the stimulant type. i thin i need to nix that and look at some other alternative... i don't want to have to need it to clean me out. it's a bummer too, because the tea actually tastes really really good...
so i have to be up early tomorrow. lots to do.
i am soooo not checking my weight tomorrow. i also skipped p90x this morning (stupid, i know), but i just was not motivated to do much of anything. i put in a good 30 min on the elliptical and that was that. if i am up around 6 tomorrow and start my workouts right away, i think i'll be ok... still playing catch-up, but whatever...
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zenobia
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Posted: 2 September 2011 06:42 am |
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sooooo ravenous again today. ugh. so stuffed. pretty much binged on nuts and peanut butter. had a bit too much soy products too... yeah, i'm stressed and on my first day, and prolly oging through serious carb withdrawls (though they are not cut out completely, just nixed the hardcore stuff...). dude, i hope i get over this. in fact, i'm highly considering a fast tomorrow. I have some major homework to do and maybe if i shut myself up in the "office" all day till i have to work, then just load up on water, i can make it through the day without eating, just flushing some water through my system. i have to get to be early anyway for work... you know, i might as well do it..
and you know, i actually was influenced by that list in jack's diary. there was a question about fasting and if you could do it... can i use my self-discipline and fast for a day just because? just to test myself? yup, it's gonna be a tough day to do it, but you know, why not? i guess this will be a test...
man, why didn't i binge on veggies today? i'm gonna guess around 2250 cals today... yuck... i should probably be right at or around maint. though after 40 min elliptical plus a night of work (though i was dragging a$$ all night...) whatever. a water fast will do me good tomorrow. and a good HIIT session, i'm thinking...
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 2 September 2011 02:32 pm |
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Hi babe, just wanted to come by and lend you some encouragement. I've never followed a South Beach or any other diet but that keeping carbs low and subbing in lean protein was a key change in my diet which made all the difference. There are almost no carby type things in my house except bread (which I eat in moderation); pasta (which involves cooking, which is a deterrent) and of course alcohol (which is the biggest weakness). It really helps to not have things in the house and just talking about this here is making me realize that if I don't replenish the liquor supply it will probably help the weight loss...so thanks for making me stop and think about it.
Anyway in the big picture you've been working out a lot - which is awesome - and I've found out even with a few extra pounds, if I'm toned up I look decent and healthy and feel good regardless. So keep at the workouts and try not to beat yourself up over the calories - a binge is your body's way of saying "I need something". Fasting+HIIT sounds like a bit much to expect out of your body, why not just make it a moderate calorie day?
Hope school is going well - really excited that the new year is here and you are one step closer to finishing! xoxox
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Hisgal
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Posted: 2 September 2011 05:20 pm |
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Zen wrote:
i have also decided that i need to moisterize more. I'm really good about doing my face (people tend to think i'm closer to 23 than 29, so this is good!!!) but i want to have young looking skin everywher else too for as long as possible. i think increasing my water, adding the lemon, taking vitamins, eating the "good and green" and keeping up with skin oils will help in this department. i actually used some nut oils today and it feels pretty good.
Zen, do you take Omega 3 Fish oils? I used to sporadically..........but since I've started taking them on a regular basis, my hair and skin look and feel great! Also, some of them aren't pure, and some don't have the recommended 1000 mg daily, unless you take multiples of them. Just a thought...........
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zenobia
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Posted: 3 September 2011 06:38 am |
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hisgal- yep, i do sporadically as well. i should get some better quality ones and make sure to take them daily.
mol, turns out you were right. an empty stomach is not conducive to finishing homework and making it through a work day. so i did end up eating right around 1150-1200. a perfect day. slightly below my bmr, but that was waht i was looking for.
i also fit in 45 min workout this morning consisting of the whole TJ PUnch, kick and jam. usually i skip the resistance band part since i have none, but used some dumbbells today instead. over all a great workout. i had tons of energy from over feeding last night. i'm happy i just went on an even keel today, i don't want to go overboard tomorrow.
i planned on biking this evening before bed, but instead i tried to fit in some more homework. i actually did, i just hope it still feels coherent tomorrow when i really have to get down to business. I hope to finish up a paper by tomorrow night, then work on some other stuff due this week more at my leisure on sunday and monday. especially sunday...
so the plan for tomorrow-
if i can wake up early enough, i need to get in some morning cardio. work til 4, come home and if i am super tired, have a quick nap. then start typing paper, workout if i need a break, finish paper and be in bed by no later than 1 am. sunday is work in the morning again, if my paper is not done, get it done by 7 pm, get in a workout, then start some of y reading while having a few drinks. sounds bloody amazing! i have not had a drink in a week, so this is good news
oh, my paper is due by midnight on sunday, so one way or another, i won't have to worry about it on monday... i just have another easier paper to take care of, do some readings, and look at some research, observe college kids and twitter about them, respond to a peer's paper, and try to respond to 2 blog posts if i get the chance (that would be getting ahead)... yeah, busy times ahead. oh well, the last time i lost a bunch of weight, i was under tons of stress, so maybe this will help...
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Nir
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Posted: 4 September 2011 04:19 pm |
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zenobia wrote:
man, why didn't i binge on veggies today?
That is pretty much it. I got a bit of self-knowledge. Yes, I have an issue with a sweet tooth and once I have the first thing I want more but my main problem is that I need to be full in a way that other people... well they just don't. So I work with it. To keep things simple I'm OK with just being extra-super-full one time per day and naturally I do it on good stuff ('the good and the green'?). Know my weakness and work with it.
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 4 September 2011 05:44 pm |
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Binging on veggies - great idea, for sure. How far off the track can you get doing that?
Btw, Zen, I noticed you wisely decided not to fast for the whole day. I agree, I know I'm not ready to try that yet. Not to hijack, but I'm going to try something new today, and I warned my wife yesterday about it, so she doesn't get upset. I decided to fast *on dinner only* today. So, I've had my last meal of the day already. She's going to have pasta because she knows I don't eat it anyway.
I hope your homework assignment goes well!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 10 September 2011 07:15 pm |
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Hey, Chica, how are things going?
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zenobia
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Posted: 13 September 2011 11:09 pm |
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holy #%@&! things have been busy.
between working full time, this class from he.ll and getting everything that i need for this wedding, i have been totally strapped for time. seriously.
well, to get up to speed...
i got a dress for the wedding. i will post a pic eventually. Not quite what i was hoping for, but i didn't really go hard core dress shopping. i shopped a lot on line and didn't really find what i was looking for. i ended up getting one from Guess. it's cute. reminded me of like mobster chic, so i'm going the whole 9 yards with it. feathers in the hair, thigh high stocking with the seam up the back patent leather stilletos... now i just need a faux fur coat.. that would be smokin...
i've got an outfit put together for the groom's dinner, too. it's a black and nude shift dress (like a Goldie hawn dress- super short), fishnet stockings (the classy ones though), black mary janes, hoop earrings, black bangle bracelets.
super cute.
anyway, i am down in weight. the last time i looked i was at 138.5, but i think i'm smaller now. clothes are really loose. staying low carb, heavy on the cardio, i'm doing ok... the corset i wore for my wedding pretty much fits now, but it's still pretty tight. i may wear it under my dress. it makes my waist look pretty amazing.
anyway... yeah, just super hectic around here. I have so much work for this class but i'm keeping up ok. i need to get ahead for the week i am gone.. i'm pretty bad about that kind of thing... i just want the wedding to get here so i can stop stressing about it. i swear, i'm more stressed about thier wedding than i was for mine!
anyway, things are good and i hope to post more often, especially after we get back. I'm sooooooooo not gonna fall of the wagon and gain everything i've lost back. i'm getting close to wear i want to be- i can feel it- i can't give up now. i have to stay motivated!
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zenobia
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Posted: 14 September 2011 07:17 pm |
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scale read 136.5 this morning. i then proceeded to work out .... and then have buttered popcorn....
*sigh*
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 15 September 2011 01:12 am |
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Zen, #%@&!, those outfits sound *smokin*. What are you trying to do to the poor middle-aged married guys at that wedding, anyway. I want pics!
Oh, yeah, major applause for the 136.5. And also for your determination not to let down your guard afterwards.
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zenobia
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Posted: 19 September 2011 07:40 am |
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oh jack. you know how to make a girl blush!
we'll see about those pics...
so i find it's extremely difficult to keep up here along with everything else right now. sadly i didn't take advantage of my summer break to be here more often and actually reach my goal, but so it goes... i'm here now... and who's the girl fitting into those size 5 short shorts??? yeah, me!
so yeah, on the weight loss scope, i'm doing ok. i can feel that i am going to plateau because i'm not being super amazing with the calorie counting.i need to get better with that. i'm still in love with working out (i think it helps in the whole "things i would rather be doing than homework" category, so i'm totally working out to feel productive...).
OMG. Can you guys help me?
I need to write a narrative or a story.... inspired by 5 essays from a book. so, i have my 5 essays that i have selected. the basis of these essays are basically... to see all sides of the argument is ok don't worry about being viewed as "flip floppy," mystery is amazing and sometimes we really don't want to find out answers to those big questions, volatile emotions are ok and we should embrace our "dark side," and i think that is it. (interesting book- "This I Believe" the new version. there are actually some wondrful essays in there and a few of them spoke to me in a very profound way...)
so i am pretty much leaning towards either writing a story about how i'm terrible at telling stories (which i am) or writing a story that is so acid trip and like andy Warhol-ish that you pretty much need drugs to get it... personally, i'm better at the latter... but you know, i just don't know.
it's due tuesday.
so recently i've become totally obsessed with taking care of my body. well, not obsessed, but really conscious of what is going on with my body. i know why. i have a big birthday coming in march. the cool thing is that i look young for my age. the bad thing is that it wont last forever. so i'm not really trying to "hold on to my youth" but at the same time, i'm fully aware of what is going on with the subtle changes. it's a really strange thing. like, if genetics have anything to say, i won't get gray hair till i'm like 40-ish. also, with how my eyes are, i won't get crows feet. BUT jowls are a thing that run in the family on both sides. i have a nice jaw line. i would like to maintain it, yet i can already feel it shifting (i have a natural expression of a frown... sad, i know). i feel like i should be doing headstands on a regular basis.... stupid gravity...
regardless, i think weightloss is going to help pretty much everything. 2 days ago i was still at 136.5, so this is cool. i still have 6 months to get in the "best shape of my life."
cool thing is that hubs is still conscious of his body and wants to get in shape. since he started working he's dropped 10 lbs (gus lose soooooo easily) and he wants to keep going... PLUS It's almost tennis season again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 20 September 2011 02:23 am |
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Tennis season - yeah! I keep forgetting you play tennis. Zen you are too much. I bet you have pretty good form, too
Yeah, I'm having a tough time keeping up with my journal too. I should be computing right now, and here I am instead. Well, what can ya do?
It's so funny you can't tell a joke, I would definitely go with that story, it's very charming.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N-tRXewCAmULast edited on 20 September 2011 02:25 am by jackbenimble
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Hisgal
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Posted: 22 September 2011 04:35 am |
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Hey Zen................I think you'll understand my excitement today. I found the first of the new season's HONEY CRISP APPLES! 
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zenobia
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Posted: 27 September 2011 01:44 am |
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holy cr.ap guys! HI!
so... how are things? I'm pretty good here. got back from MN yesterday after a "wham bam thank you m'am" kind of trip. it was loads of fun and a really nice and swanky wedding :) the weather was great and we got to hang out with our best buds. the bride was beautiful (as always!) and the groom was super dapper. loved it!
hubs and i didn't look too shabby ourselves and i hope to get some pics once the bride and groom get back form thier honeymoon. sadly, i didn't think to get one of hubs and me on my camera... bummer too. Apparently i was getting lots of second takes and checked out. hellz-to-the-yeah! oh well, i hope to dress up again soon for just a date night anyway.
so anyway, things are getting back to the grind. hubs went back to work today (oh yeah! he got a promotion!!!!!) and i was busy unpacking and doing homework. ad yup, i worked out. i didn't do too bad for food on this trip save for saturday and sunday... sunday was certainly the worst. after 2 cheat days and 4 semi cheat days (alcohol mostly on those 4. i still did pretty well avoiding carbs), plus no working out over the duration of our trip, i need to get myself back in order.
today wasn't so bad except for some left over chinese food, some popcorn, and some wine. seriously, it could have been worse. plus i did 30 min eliptical and 7 min of weights (uppers). so i'm feeling ok about it all. besides, school starts back up tomorrow and i tend to do well once my week gets back into gear. but i'm staying on track regardless.
i have another 10 lbs or so to lose. my mother says not to, but i like wiggle room. besides, i'm going to really start focusing on muscle now that i have more time
and OMG HONEY CRISP SEASON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 27 September 2011 02:17 am |
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Sounds like it was awesome :) So glad to hear it!
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Hisgal
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Posted: 27 September 2011 05:07 pm |
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Zenobia wrote:
and OMG HONEY CRISP SEASON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just finished 1/2 of one for a morning snack!
I found some "Sweet Tango" which is promoted as even better than the Honey Crisp, but no way! The Honey Crisps I got were huge, so super sweet and sooooo tasty! Can't be beat! And I've heard it said they don't taste better anywhere, than the ones you get right here in MN. I love apple  season!
BTW, went on a weekend with high school girlfriends last weekend. We went to a winery in Chippewa Falls WI, and tasted their top-selling wine "Northern Lights" It's a semi-sweet white wine made from grapes and apples.........don't open a bottle unless you have time to finish it! Very good!
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 28 September 2011 03:28 am |
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What no pics of you in the dress? Ah. That is unfortunate. However, I'm sure we'll get to see some more pics of you soon :)
Glad you had a great time, and welcome back :)
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zenobia
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Posted: 29 September 2011 07:05 pm |
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well. turns out we will not be getting Honey crisps in AZ for a while. so sad :( but, we do have those sweet tangos, so i will have to give them a whirl.
jack- i'm still waiting on the pics. :)
so i ate too much yesterday, but i stayed away from "bad" foods. I'm keeping away from breads and pastas (and sugars of course), but i am going to start to incorporate fruit into my diet again. i want to keep with the whole foods idea. i don't know if i can totally nix meat and dairy, but i want more fruits and veggies in my diet again. i think i am going to really have to count the cals, too. i just can't"follow my gut" and see where i end up. i need to know what goes in.
so today, since i have not yet been grocery shopping, i have had:
protein shake with natural pb- 275
cheese stick- 50
tea with lemon (green w/ blueberries, acai, and pom)
workout:
TJ FB- 30 min
so happy i worked out... i totally did not want to. I just have to keep up the motivation...
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